Lately (meaning for a few months now) I have been
thinking about the concept of going to things or seeing things rather than
doing things. This has really challenged me. You see it all started when I was
cuddled up on the couch in a quilt my Great Aunt made for me with a
delicious mug of hot chocolate as I watched some old hockey games. At this
point in time the NHL still had the season on hold. I was checking twitter on
an almost daily basis just hoping to hear the update that hockey would be back!
As I was sitting there watching an old Oiler’s game from the glory days of
Gretzky and Messier I started to have a challenging introspective moment. I
could not help but feel challenged that I have never played hockey; more than
that I was challenged about watching life versus being a part of life.
What
am I supposed to do about this? Well I’ll be honest I am probably not going to
stop watching hockey or going to start playing hockey. I can only imagine the
ways I would be crushed. On top of this I think hockey is my sport to enjoy
from the sidelines. BUT this thinking still challenged me. I want to be doing.
So I have made some challenges to myself. I will finish the novel I’m writing. I
will attempt to get it published. I will finish the art series that I’m working
on. I will complete another art series after I finish this one. I will attempt
to get my art series into a gallery where other people can see my art and
hopefully become inspired to go out and do something. This also challenged me
in terms of Hans and my trip to Europe. I loved our trip but my constant
concern was will we be going out and doing something or just walking around
looking at everything. Our trip was amazing but I have to say I feel
challenged. I want to leave earth better than I find it. If I am just watching
all the time I will miss out on so many of the awesome things that God has
planned for me to take part in. I believe we are supposed to rest in Christ but
I think in that new strength and peace we are to go out and truly change the
world for God’s glory. Honestly I’m still figuring things out but I am so glad
that I have God, Hans, and my family to help me along the way.
