{Some Realizations}
I realize that some things are more complicated than I thought when I thought my world was pretty much black and white... there is compassion and grace that exists in ways I still don't understand.
I realize I am amazingly blessed to have Hans as my husband and life partner. I love that we get to share in life together. This one is an older realization but it still surprises me in fresh ways. Hans is absolutely still my best friend. I'm amazed by how God has blessed me with that man. We've both been busy at work writing novels and I love bouncing ideas off him or having him pick my mind about the things he's considering for his characters. Hans is such an amazing man. I care so deeply for him and I know he cares deeply for me. Sometimes it's difficult to believe that we've been married more than two years.... It seems even more wild to me that we'll have known each other only five years this October... I've realized that writing can be very rewarding but difficult to pick up when set down for a bit.
I've realized that I enjoy writing more when I have a cool funky looking mug of tea next to me. I think it is important to try new things and challenge yourself. With this in mind I am so grateful to be with someone who challenges me and challenges himself. We are training to run a half marathon together this fall and I am so excited.
I've realized that sometimes things just hold you down. We've moved into a little studio apartment. We're trying to downsize since it seems like we might be having a lot of transitions in the next few years. I am so grateful to have someone who is so connected to me agree with me on this point. I really love our new little apartment. It feels very much like home right now. Through this downsizing I have also realized that bunk beds can also serve as a great way to store things!
I've realized that having work is a huge blessing! (I knew this one but sometimes refreshers happen.) We are both working for the University right now... That has been great but it's temporary.
I've realized that I want some things less matchy matchy. Over the summer I have begun a mission to collect awesome but weird and mismatched mugs. So far I've gotten about seven.
I've also been realizing more and more how important people are. We've had the opportunity to visit my family a number of times. Hans helped buck hay and we swam in the pool. We also had a fun little date up to Canada for mini golf and Tim Hortons. I also got to spend a week working in my grandpa's carpenter shop on a nearly completed art series! That was wonderful. I am so blessed by my amazing grandpa and his willingness to help me learn to use various power tools and grow as an artist. All this was filled with people that Hans and I love... These "people memories" (even my memories with the wonderful people at work!!! Work has been such a blessing!) are what have made this summer meaningful.
Summer has in many ways been a wonderful blur so far. I want to truly make a difference in the world and I've realized it's a challenge to find the way to do that when life moves so quickly. I still believe this world will truly be changed for God's glory when I leave it and I am not giving up on my goal to change the world just because it will be hard. Hans and I are praying about the next step for us. We're excited to see where God leads... I'll try to explain a bit more later but there is a rough explanation of what has been going on in life as of late...
{Right now I am trying to learn to realize and recognize whatever it is that God wants for me then pursue it... Right now it seems to be in "small things" that are actually a pretty big deal... Relationships... Most of all I realize that God is in control. I know I can trust him through this... Life is crazy and unpredictable but God is consistent and good.}
[the end... for now.]
